06-09-2024, 11:03 AM
the hardest thing to me is facing the fear i live
no one can help me now, it’s under my heart!
The cheetah’s paws touched down on the black sands. Xe stood next to the Blood Falls. Xe sighed, adjusted xyr satchel, and scanned the side of the volcano. The opening to the cave system remained intact. And, according to the legends xe’d heard in xyr youth, Requiem and Vayu always left the cave system intact for each eruption and earthquake. However, it wasn’t ready to go inside and survey the damage… or meet the survivors.
Xanti’s scorpion tail curled up. Then xe exhaled. Half-closed xyr golden eyes.
Xe scanned the line of felled trees. And saw the changed landscape of the volcano’s face. Yet, in the distance, xe saw the trees sway along the banks of the Hawit River.
Xanti sighed. Xyr right ear twitched as xe focused on the gurgling on the waterfall. What was the probability that xyr mother and xyr three siblings had all survived? Horrible. Xe didn’t want to think about who xe would prefer to have survived. Which face and voice did xe want to greet xem? Xe shook xyr head. Beginner’s mind.
“Hey!” Xanti called. The cheetah’s voice was steady. “I’m back from my trip to the mainland. Got the surgical supplies. The hell happened these past two weeks?!”
// somebody tell this poor enby that his mom is dead / already cannibalized and xyr three siblings are missing and presumed dead
Xanti’s scorpion tail curled up. Then xe exhaled. Half-closed xyr golden eyes.
Xe scanned the line of felled trees. And saw the changed landscape of the volcano’s face. Yet, in the distance, xe saw the trees sway along the banks of the Hawit River.
Xanti sighed. Xyr right ear twitched as xe focused on the gurgling on the waterfall. What was the probability that xyr mother and xyr three siblings had all survived? Horrible. Xe didn’t want to think about who xe would prefer to have survived. Which face and voice did xe want to greet xem? Xe shook xyr head. Beginner’s mind.
“Hey!” Xanti called. The cheetah’s voice was steady. “I’m back from my trip to the mainland. Got the surgical supplies. The hell happened these past two weeks?!”
// somebody tell this poor enby that his mom is dead / already cannibalized and xyr three siblings are missing and presumed dead
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UNEXPECTED YET EXPECTED —
— i wanted to hate / i wanted to die / i wanted to see you sacrificed / i had to deal with the fear you gave me / but you fucker never tried to help me / i was jealous and i was scared / nobody ever replaced my pain / to say i’m not evil, to tell I’m not bad / too late, i’m lost in human nature / leave me be / set me free / leave me be / set me free / the hardest thing to me is facing the fear i live / no one can help me now, it’s under my heart / i’ll come to know the living, my demons are inside / i’ll bring them all to light / ———— emerged from the dark I come to life!