Atbash's October CDC Tracker

[ATBASH CIPHER.]

Loss

    Atbash lost both of her parents. That was practically known throughout Snowbound by now, with how she reacted to the flames that erupted in Izuku's cabin. While her tribemates may not know the exact details, most of them knew about the fire that destroyed her Home Dimension and the fact that Caesar was the one who caused it. Atbash missed her parents dearly and wished she could bring them back. No, she actually wished she could have taken their place and died instead of them. But they made Vigenere grab and drag her away from their den just before it collapsed, soon followed by the Dimension itself. Atbash remembered the hurt and pain in her parents' eyes, as well as the last look of love that was there in their gaze. They wanted her to live because they loved her, but that left Atbash with Survivor's Guilt. The she-cat believed she should have died instead and felt bad because she lived. Every day she had to deal with the fact she could no longer hear her mother's soothing voice or her father's laughter.

    But in a sense, she also lost her brothers. Both Caesar and Vigenere were no longer by her side, something she always imagined they would be doing. Ever since she could remember, they were always by her side and protecting her as much as they could. Of course, Vigenere went off to the King's Guard but that was such an honor to be apart of so Atbash held no ill will against him. Caesar was there for her, just as she was there for him. Even though it was an accepted fact that many families of the Seventh Tier didn't really talk to each once they've left home, they all promised each other that they would. Atbash had faith that they would and she wished things would be like that.

    Then came the day when Caesar lit the Dimension in flames and they had to escape. By this time, her and Vigenere had practically accepted that Caesar was no longer their brother, despite Atbash wanting to believe the opposite. Caesar wasn't the brother she grew up with, he was now a monster who felt no remorse for what he had done. Atbash decided to stick with Vigenere once they traveled to Earth, but soon her eldest brother chased her off. He claimed he needed time to himself and Atbash was hurt by his words but eventually respected them and came to Snowbound. And although she knew that Vigenere now resides in Tanglewood, a neutral to Snowbound, he didn't really come by to visit her. He was just as lost to her as Caesar was, though if Vigenere ever came to Snowbound for help, she would help him.

    Caesar on the other hand... was truly no brother of hers anymore. Caesar had done far too much to her and while there was something inside her that told her otherwise, Atbash knew for a fact he was now dead to her. Caesar attempted to murder her - twice - and showed no signs of changing his ways. He was no longer the brother she remembered. The brother she knew was lost.

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